Good-bye Cinnamon, you will be in my heart forever

I know this is not craft related, so please accept my apologies if you are here looking for that today. I had to put our dog, Cinnamon down today, she would have been 15 in January. My heart is broken. I need to journal here a few things about her that I don't want to ever forget. What I will miss about her:
- her nose snuggled in my tummy when she is happy to see me
- greeting me at the door every time until she stopped hearing us come home, but even then, as soon as she saw us she was so excited
- carrying a shoe, slipper, etc around when we got home. We originally let her do this as it kept her from jumping up as a puppy.. she always did this, never hurt the shoe!
- looking up into Derek's loft bed in the morning trying to find him
- following me around every time I left the room
- the pitter patter of doggy feet on hard wood floors
- playing with her rope
-laying her head on my lap
- romping in the snow
- smelling the fresh air outside
- unconditional love for me
- dressing her up at Halloween (guess we won't get to use that costume) :(
- just seeing her lay on her bed
- my companion during the day as I work at home
- snuggling up at night
- just looking at her made me smile
- the softness of the fur around her neck
-the feel of her ears
- the smell of her after her bath of oatmeal smelling dog shampoo
- her wet nose
- her beautiful brown eyes
- her perky ears
- her tail wagging high with the white tip
- playing catch with the tennis ball when she was younger
- playing frisbee
-teaching her to sit, stay, come, etc - 2 training classes!
- treats after she went outside
- love, love, love!
- her brown faux leather doggy bed fluffed up on one side with her head on it
-- or her laying half off of her bed
--watching me walk by to see if I am leaving the room
--called her 'puppy' up until the day she died
-also know as 'fu-fu', Cinny, Mama's Girl, Puppy Dog, Fur Ball (all bring a smile to my face, Woofy, Cinn-a-Minny (coined by vet tech Jenny)
- asked her to say hi to my daddy in heaven and let him know I love and miss him, too.
- tail wagging for a treat
- how she would 'talk' to me -- arr rar rar
- greeting me when I come home, always excited to see me
- coming to me when she didn't feel good
- putting on her gentle leader collar for walks
- laying in my scraproom (usually in the way!)
- born January 2006, we adopted her from the Humane Society in March 2006
- wouldn't hurt a fly or even the injured bird in our back yard
- never hurt anyone, never got mad if you took her food away or treats, etc
- always behaved well at the vet & getting her nails trimmed
- all the neighborhood kids loved her, too
- one ear up & one ear tabbed down
- all things peanut butter - loved it! we put it on any pills & she would gulp it down. She would drool at it on a spoon. When she was younger she recognized the sound of the lid opening & would come running.. as she got older she would have to see it.
- nudging my bed with her wet nose at night and whining for me to put her up once she could no longer jump up
- the sound of her drinking out of her dish in my bedroom at night
-she hated the rain and hated walking in the wet grass to go to the bathroom
- walking down one side of the steps so she could run down the other side (did this until the end)
- snatching bread, pizza, burgers.. anything we left alone on the counter & gobble it quickly before we could take it away
- nice slender healthy build even though we always left her food out all day
- laying with her legs spread out behind her like a cat
- nudging my leg when I was at my desk chair
- Derek coming to find her every morning to give her love, and making sure to pet & hug her before he went to bed
- staying by my side in bed as I recovered from surgery both times, anytime I was sick really
- pushing into us head first with her body when we sat on the floor or if we were lucky in bed at night so we could pet her & rub her hind quarters
-the sound of her nose pushing on the closed wood door, she didn't like me in a room with a closed door if she wasn't in there
- moving around wherever she was resting so that she could always see me..just in case I left the room
- laying on the floor of my scraproom
- hiding when she knew we were leaving & she had to go in her indoor kennel - usually in Cassie or Derek's room, or downstairs
- tieing her up to the basketball hoop pole when I was outside
- fall allergies - itchy feet, surgical cone so she didn't hurt herself, predisone tabs if needed
- Canine I/D special diet dog food for her sensitive stomache for at least 5 years
- Derek said he didn't want another pet cuz letting go is so hard
- Shaker can - 10 ish pennies in a pop can, sealed at the top with duck tape. If she was doing something naughty we would shake the can & she would stop instantly (until her hearing go less in the last couple of years)
- her bark collar.. rarely used ..only when she got jealous if her people were playing rough housing without her, or her mom stepped out of her reach
- looking for the match to my other shoe. She used to drag one around when we got home, never know where you might find it.
-who would have ever thought I might miss seeing those tuffs of dog hair around?
- we kept a sheet on top of our comforter so Cinny could sleep on the bed & we had a washable cover.

Well.. that is all my tired heart & brain can think of now. I am sure I will add more later.